A good eight years were wasted on someone I dated briefly and became obsessed with once he ended it. I think there is still a lot more stigma than we admit, and every joke someone cracks about being “so OCD” makes it harder to explain that while you all think you’re totally cool with me being obsessive-compulsive, it’s a lot more than lining up pencils and touching the light switch.

It was the most tangible manifestation of my illness I’ve experienced, and it makes me sick to think about. Men have broken up with me after getting only a glimpse of my worst looming on the horizon, and others have stayed with me through abhorrent behavior because they were afraid of what I might do if they left.

I belong in the Victorian age, when I could have carried out an epistolary courtship with a friend of my brother's, stationed abroad, and kept my secrets until we wed.

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I come with more worse than most people, and it’s only fair that I’m honest about that.

My mother thinks I should keep my mouth shut as long as possible.

It causes intense episodes of psychosis involving delusions and hallucinations, and longer periods of reduced expression, motivation and functioning. One of the main symptoms of schizophrenia is psychosis.

A person experiencing psychosis finds it hard to tell what is real from what isn’t.

And as I know from dating a fellow depressive, I ironically have little patience for it. I feel time running out for a family, adding a charming dimension of desperation.

All I can do is hope for the best, gingerly feel my way along, constantly remind myself to slow down and breathe, and not hurl myself headlong at the first half-decent man I meet.

A boy I met in grad school lasted a year, but we were too hot-tempered to coexist in the same air.

A couple of unhappy years with someone back home who loved me when I did not love him.

I have seen dating websites for the mentally ill, and although I'm sure there is blessed relief in a partner who knows what you're going through from the get-go, I don’t think matching us up is a good idea.